“I can’t believe he said that,” I thought to myself.
A poor choice of words had seeped from my husband’s mouth. The hurtful kind.
Instead of praying about it right away, I let my mind dwell on the sentence.
And dwell. And dwell.
I was concerned for the other person’s feelings mainly, because I knew Matt had not meant for it to come out the way it did.
But instead of standing up for him, I dropped my head in embarrassment and kept quiet.
Then the tension in me grew as time went on, and I couldn’t hardly enjoy myself where we were.
My mind swirled with captions of what others were possibly thinking that very moment. Then I began to get angry inside.
Isn’t it funny how we sometimes react to things we are making up in our heads?
Or maybe it’s just me…
When we got in the van, I could no longer hold it in. Trying to disguise my agitation, I calmly but firmly exclaimed, “Do you not realize what you said?!”
Teeth grit and all.
Whose Side Am I On?
When a mistake is made, we can either side with God or partner with Satan.
God is not going to throw punches, He wants us to realize our wrongdoing and come to Him as He offers mercy and forgiveness.
He is not going to skirt around a matter and be sneaky either – but He lovingly convicts us and patiently waits for us to respond.
I was not patient.
I realize us spouses need to confront at times – I am simply sharing this experience because if not careful, we can subconsciously try to be our spouses Holy Spirit, and actually end up getting in the way of the work God is trying to do in them.
I tend to want to rush God when it comes to Him dealing with my spouse, but how would I feel if the coin were flipped?
So the next time something is said or done that ruffles my feathers, I am praying God will help me control my tongue and give me peace.
When I learn to stop dwelling on what others think and start fixing my mind of Christ, I believe I won’t be so vulnerable to attack.
I am sharing a very Biblically solid blog post link where I took some time to read the other day because I have had issues with receiving and giving condemnation.
I had been doing so much better, but find when I slip – it’s like a downward spiral.
My heart wants to do good, but like any other habit that needs to be broke, so it is too with the worry which leads to thoughts which can lead to action – in this case, more hurtful words.
I knew how I was acting and feeling was not lining up with God’s ways, because I was feeling guilty, depleted and downright yucky.
I wasn’t fixing my mind on good things. Duh, Meghan!
Read about Conviction VS Condemnation here at MarriageMissions.com.
This is a post from the “Overcoming Obstacles” Series.