Because I would bounce from church to church and run and run when I got offended or confused. I didn’t build myself up. I didn’t build others up.
I think I was so distracted my wrong expectations of the church and people, that I didn’t do much of building God’s name up!
I was a demolition queen. Not so long ago..
My advice to you even if you are confused about where you are?
Build relationships. Don’t demolish.
I once thought if people weren’t in the same bubble as I was, or knew scriptures, or cussed, that God probably wanted me to run. Because He wants us to run from evil right?
But my thinking was twisted and the consequence of listening to lies subtle and lies extreme, was broken relationships and an empty hurting heart.
Run, run, tear down, tear down.
This church gal needed a new heart, new eyes to see.
God delivered me!
“I’m going to give you a new heart, and I’m going to give you a new spirit within all of your deepest parts. I’ll remove that rock-hard heart of yours and replace it with one that’s sensitive to me.” NIV
For 30 years my Heavenly Father has been building me and simultaneously building me into His church, so I can be a real part of His body.
And He wastes nothing so I can picture Him recycling clumps of clay and weaving wonders in the story. There will always be pieces, slivers and tools with which to build – so I gladly open my hands in surrender for God to use my past and present to build whatever he wants for the future.
This is part of the “Lost Christian Series”
Linking up with these awesome believers this week: